Random Inklings

Tell me who's your friend and I'll tell you who you are.

Wed, 17 May 2006 19:18:33 GMT

Instead of going anywhere and joining in with Cinco de Mayo's festivities - we opted for a quiet night out and some good Chinese food.

We got home and saw some recorded CSI episodes before he fell asleep. I made him take a quick shower since he tends to wake up middle of the night and has difficulty going back to sleep afterwards. The shower should hopefully help him sleep better.

I truly enjoy quiet time, this type of quality time.

I just wish there was more of it.

Russian Proverb.

Do unto others as you want other to do unto you.

Wed, 03 May 2006 18:47:55 GMT

Mom's birthday is around the corner. Haveno clue what I should get for her. Have to get something is all I know.

Still need to fix pending bank issue.

Awesome heart pounding episodes of "Prison Break" and "24". I can't wait for next week. Cons aare cons. President Logan is a rat with cojones!

Rally was today. Left work early. Otherwise we would be stranded. I hope the people marching did not forget the real cause of this protest. Some people exploit and misunderstand the process. I saw how some people turned belligerent and violent at the scene. How do they expect to be respected and listened to if they create chaos. They need to be united. Better to have stayed home.

All Americans, except for the Native Americans are immigrants. I believe both sides share a good point with respect to this battle. People tend to push it all the way to each extreme. I just pray our legislators weigh both options closely and consult their conscience and faith since people's lives hang in the balance. We need wisdom to get us through this. God help us all.

Not a hater here.

Bedtime.

Life is too short to worry about following the rules.

Mon, 01 May 2006 09:50:02 GMT

Just got through seeing "Grey's Anatomy". Meredith finally goes out with her vet. They birthed a horse together and the goo from that needed to be cleaned off. She showered at his place. Shepherd drops off Doc and sees her that way. He forms a conclusion, goes home and has sex with Addison. He is such an ass!!!!!!!!! I feel so bad for Meredith. She hasn't even done anything wrong.

Anyways..... fish tycoon and tamale loco has driven me crazy all weekend. No schoolwork or chores done!

Back to work tomorrow. Leave early cause of the rally. Traffic will be jammed.

Weekend was really awesome with my beau. Relaxed. We took Afif to Houstons on Friday night. He shared his plan to leave Sara. I feel for both of them.

Anniversary started with a wonderful surprise. Lunch @ IHOP after to get breakfast. Stopped @ Best Buy to pick up my notebook. Still broken. Picked up presents for Afif and Little Freddito. Saw "United 93". Cried my eyes out. Stopped by our place. Changed. Wrapped the presents. Drove to Inglewood to see Cheva for Freddito's party. Food wasn't that good.Tried to leave earlier, but had to wait til cake cutting. My beau had a glass of wine. Stopped @ Ralphs so he can get a dozen pink roses and a card. Told him moment passed, but he insisted. We drove home after saw Tsunami episode of CSI Miami. He dozed off on the "Close to Home" episode. Off to bed to end with magic.

Ready for bed....

Love takes time.

Mon, 01 May 2006 05:09:31 GMT

Four years today.

It takes two to Tango.

Fri, 28 Apr 2006 22:49:32 GMT

Maz brought Rubio's and Coldstone for lunch. I was able to finish my statement w/Lysander.

Meeting started off slow since Maz began with his usual speech. Bag lady shot off her mouth right away. Everyone was letting her go through her usual attacks. I sat their impatiently waiting until I had to tell her its better to address each issue so I don't forget. I think I expressed myself fine.

It wasn't so bad because i handled her insults on point. I wasn't going to sit there and just take it.

Back to work now.

Lunch was good. Everyone left already.

Dinner @ Houston's w/Afif tonight.

"Never give up your goodness, even if people are bad to you over and over....

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 21:12:18 GMT

Bag lady went ballistic on a file. She claims its my need for power. She denies the fact that she has problems with constructive criticisms. People here were eating lunch and she just started yelling like a drunk idiot convincing herself she's right just in front of the boss. How rude, unprofessional and disrespectful. She thinks she's an attorney.... maybe in another country. So not here..... She had that all-too-common God complex.

"Let's call a meeting." suggested by our boss. Sure like another meeting would solve her problems. Her issues are she thinks she's better than everyone. If anyone so much as asks her regarding her decision, she goes off the charts. She is the boss's secretary!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn!!!!

She wants to be office manager. Go ahead. Take my spot. Just make sure you're here to get work done!!!!!!!!!!! Well.....the problem's there already.

So much for the pleasant morning with Casalme.

Thanks to Ro for the quote.

Pick your poison xxxx

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 01:18:02 GMT

Sent out a bunch of demands lately. Can't wait for things to finally materialize. As of now, still no drafts.

School work, I'm lagging.

Mr. Jun brought lunch for 2 days straight. Good Flip cuisine.

RTR's cool. Oh how I wish I can be of more help. Ro's her usual sweet and ultra curious self. Could really care less about the bag lady. Maz and I are okay.

Office life is my everyday. Almost at least. i think the broster is coming home this weekend.

Mind's pretty blank right now. Trying to figure out how to get more caught up. See...how I jump from one topic back to work again.

Fish Tycoon is my addiction right now.

More power to faith.

Last night I watched:
"House" -#1 (Herpes v. Divine Intervention)
"The Unit" #1 (SERE School)
"NCIS" #1 (Creepy Stalker episode)
"CSI:Miami" #2 (So-so kidnapping episode)
News as usual.
"Girls Behaving Badly" - laugh myself to sleep and to forget creepy stuff.

Don't look a Gift Horse in the mouth.

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 17:47:32 GMT

Good morning fellow procrastinators!

Haven't done any of my homework onr reveiwed that case Jho sent over. I should try and get some done tonight.

Oriental noodles are what I made for lunch today. I was feeling uneasy as as I was preparing that last night. The X-factor's been harrassing me again.

He says he wants something.... when he says he wants nothing before. Dunno why he wouldn't leave me alone. I feel like he's stalking me.

Anyways, got lots of things I need to get done today.

To everything there is a season...

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 22:06:09 GMT

Spent all day with Tris. Wonderful night Friday night. We celebrated Afif's birthday with dinner @ El Cholo's. Food wasn't so bad. We were going to La Fonda's originally, but no reservations and no one wanted to wait that long. So much for the Mariachis.

Saw Sara and Sarina. She has grown up a lot. I am so glad she remembers me. She really liked those bracelets. I have to visit here one time. She likes Science a lot. She'll be a pretty young lady. Sarah finally met the gang. Astry and Freddy are so cool. there's that super nice lady whose name always escapes me. Ramiro also showed up. The rest are Afif's family. He had a cousin who was visiting from Honoduras come with his mom. Afif's mom was also there with this grandmas. I really need to learn Spanish.

His aunt seemed to be taken with my complexion. Nice compliment.

Magic from Friday was truly magical. Tristan was dropped off early Saturday and 2 more sessions happened after that. I feel good.

Sadly, little chores and homework were done.

I enjoyed my time with him though.

Even the best fall down sometimes.

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 21:34:51 GMT

Let it go. Easier not to care.

Disappointment comes in all forms.

Makes doing good so difficult. Make thinking twice before doing aanything more appealing. This is sooooooooo sad.

Flor and Blondie

Why?

Nothing meant anything.

oh well....

No good deed goes unpunsished.

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 08:39:44 GMT

Just got home from dancing. pretty late, but not really. We left around midnight. Stopped to get a quick bite. I vented to Marilou there. Flor & Blondie seems to blame me for everything. What can I do? They igonred me all night. I am tired of it though. Why should I care? My concern and care for them is seen another way. This work conflict is a true stress factor for me.

Thought they're my friends. They didn't even hear me out.

My bank is still screwing me.

Need to get some shuteye.

Bury the hatchet already.....

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 01:35:09 GMT

Jim is exaggerating. We'll have a meeting on Monday. Hopefully everything gets resolved. Friends are getting fewer and fewer. Best regards to Elvis.

Ro's visiting her man. I am therefore flying with no wingman today and again tomorrow. I think I got a llot done today though.

Didn't really like my gnocchi today. I guess I got tired of it pretty fast. Tonight we're having noodles I think. It's dance night. However, I am not as thrilled to dance anymore. J&M are crucial dance buddies plus I do'nt think Marlon will just be satisfied with me. Oh well....

Summer's around the corner. I can feel the heat already. Should have started Booty Yoga Ballet sooner. Oh well..........

Work get me so swamped though. They or we will probably let the old wi-atch--bi-atch go pretty soon. Hope they don't kick Bren out, too.

Still no sign of C. Too busy for me.

Back to basics.

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 22:07:44 GMT

我的爱, my love.

Wish I paid more attention with my Chinese.

Make Do and Mend

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 18:21:09 GMT

Some people get too busy. Time and opportunities pass us by. All we can do is wait and hope that we can get a break. Hope to hear from you C.

Atlantis quest has been keeping me preoccupied. Too much procrastinating. Got to get some reading done. Do not want to fall behind with school.

Apparently Pro was just in one of his moods. Just self reassurance. One night stands don't and can't fly with me. It was almost that close with him, but nothing happened. Can't really give up my hell hole for the promise of nothing. That would just be an absolute waste. I realize what little I have. I have to take care of it even if it ain't much. My beau is no prince, (sigh) but I love him.
My friendship with Pro is very dear to me. I wouldn't want to risk it over this brief moment of weakness.

A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. -Chinese Proverb

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 01:46:40 GMT

Its one of those days. Busy but pointless. I wish there was more to it than meets the eyes. I wonder about the purpose. My purpose. I wish life, my life was a bit different.

I have enough independence; yet I feel locked up. The shackles are inpenetrable. Looking out and hoping. Journey to nowhere.

Try and try.... until you die. There, what shall I face? who shall I face?

"Everything Counts"

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 00:16:40 GMT

A special friend of mine is in Chicago for a week. Too bad its nowhere close to Cali. Wish he'd call so we can get caught up

Pro left an interesting message for me today. He said that he visited "our" Jamba Juice. Didn't really think we had one. Is he getting sentimental on me? I advised him that my love life is the same "old bumpy roller coaster ride." He offered the rides in his theme park!!! I asked what sort of park is it. I implied that my interests are confined to the everyday /yearlongs type places since the seasonal ones are too short for me. I guess he's fine with that assuming he understood what I meant. He just specifically indicated that children aren't allowed. I love children though.... Compromise? Am I even interested? Fun is all he offers. I need stability and nurturing.

Tax deadlines are killing me. Have to pay again this year. Joe's getting pricier.

Clients get demanding by the day. Work is work. Thank God for proprapronol.

Life is too short. Make the most of it......................

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 07:12:18 GMT

Got a manicure and a pedicure done at the new spa around my area. They took forever and charged me an arm and a leg. I am not sure if I'd like to go back there. Service was so-so. I liked the way they waxed my brows though.
Hmm....

Slow saturday. Ended up @ Whole foods after and picked up a few groceries.

Need to do my chores here @ home. What a life.

Houstons last night was cool. We both ordered fish since it was Good Friday. It was surprisingly feeling, but pricey nonetheless. We had a good friday night.

Saw an episode of "Deal or No Deal" and the news with him. He fell asleep on "Criminal Minds". Today I deleted "CSI" by mistake. Saw "American Inventor" , another "Criminal Minds" and "Without A Trace". I'm currently watching "Conviction".

I need to make dinner.

First deserve, and then desire. -English Proverb

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 17:03:36 GMT

Sometimes, iwonder why can't I have certain things, or why it can't happen how I'd want it to happen. My license..... my files........ my assistants...... my colleagues..... I truly wonder.

Today's a holy day. Yet I am here at work. I have to sit down with a super high maintenance and whinny client. I don't normally work today, yet I Am here. Church after this, then its time to go home I believe. My beau and I have dinner reservations for Houstons tonight.

Lots of work to do today still though.

Its raining,

"Those of you who say it cannot be done should not interrupt those of us who are doing it. "

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 23:48:08 GMT

Finished the drops.....

Now to more serious business..... follow ups.

Should I come to work on Saturday? Still thinking. Really depends on the weather. Not sure if I'll be up to it.

Lots to clean. Lots to do. Not to mention homework! Let me think about this.....

Wonder if Lulay will be home alone for the weekend.

ps. above quote is from a chinese proverb.

Hakuna Matata

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 17:53:33 GMT

I feel the stress and pressure from work. I think its starting to engulf me in its choking grip once again. Breathe........ Just breathe.

Feel like bungee jumping

Have lots of chaos to deal with right now. Ro is late.She's not even here yet. I'm flying solo at the moment.

I think Chris left a message. Safe trip sweetheart. I'll try to log on one night to chat. School's been keeping me occupied.

Need to drop a bunch of files. Please call me back with good news Bill!!!

Oh ye of little faith....

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 08:29:03 GMT

Just got done cooking. Decided to watch tonight's episode of "The Amazing Race". (Check out:http://www.cbs.com/primetime/amazing_race9/.) They had eliminated Lake and Michelle. They're pretty annoying cause they argue all the time. Lake is too bossy and rude. Reminds me of someone very dear to me. It's almost like I see myself each time he talks down on her. He cusses her out without as much as a forethought, not caring who's watching or can hear. He tends to be that way with me. Its embarrassing. I feel bad for her and I get mad, too. Why does she subject herself to that kind of treatment? Well, why do I do it?

Lord give me strength.

Need to talk to R tomorrow. His doubts are killing me. We get tested, and yet we choose to think the worse. Faith. Faith people.

No time for school tonight. Good night.

Some news tonight:

* A teacher told everyone she had stomach cancer and how she can't afford to pay for treatment. She got donations from school and friends. She collected a total of approximately $35,000.00. She spent the money on a Carribean vacation.

* A husband and wife took out an obituary for the death of their son who turns out to be alive. Even the grandmother was surprised. It turns out they did this so they can take some time off work!!!!

* A couple announced that they were having sextuplets. People started donating clothes , food and money. Nobody saw any babies. Turns out the woman was never pregnant. They were having financial difficulties that is why they faked the story to get sympathy and scam people.

* HP just came out with a slimming camera. Yeah sure! Still need to diet though.

Really its time for bed. Need to do dishes first.

It's not what you know, it''s WHO you know!

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 23:11:15 GMT

11 demands today! Very proud of myself for that. Let's just hope we get a few of those settled. Lord knows its long overdue.

Nothing came in today. I truly feel sorry for R. Kinda guilty for taking so long to get settled back after my medical hiatus and getting so easily distracted. Hopefully we're able to pick up drafts tomorrow.

Everyone is hurting finacially with Uncle Sam's D-day around the bend. Hope my beau and I don't end up fighting over some numbers.

The quiet desparation of BIGr-4. How some people can be so thick skinned.

Mom's pushed to September. SRC may have her days numbered if she's in any way involved.

Got to get back to work...........

When it rains.... it POURS!

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 18:27:28 GMT

Took the train this morning. It was pleasant. kinda slow, but pleasant. Rey got to the office a little after I arrived. Kinda' cool. I got Ro some breakfast. Bacn & Cheese Scramble on an egg bagel. I had the same on a jalapeno bagel.

"The Adventure" from Angels and Airwaves started playing as I stood and waited for our breakfast. I kept rewinding the same song til I walked into the offce. i dedicate that song to Pro. Perfect for our "What ifs" Hmm.....

Need drafts. Bill said 2 not til tomrrow. Ret's presuring me. Wish I had a golden goose or a genie in a lamp to make his wishes come true.

Still busy sending demands right now.

My beau's helping out my mom today for her case. Everyone is there.

Today's Chronicles.

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 05:46:12 GMT

I was able to get lots of things done today. Ro- insists that Bong may have a thing for me. I cannot be sure, but he seems to like me. He is associated with r4 though, that can't be good. That's actually a turn off. Who knows?

Pro lelft a message last night. Pretty intense. :

"She has a nasty habit
She disappears again
Work becomes her world
Such a shame
Better things await
Beyond their expectations
Beyond her pain"

Deep....

Have a little thing to do for school. Have to be up real early tomorrow.

Miracles make believers. Thank you God.

Close to mid-April wow!

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 18:28:22 GMT

I had a very relaxing weekend. We visited Golden Dragon Friday night. They are really getting busier. The food is always satisfying.

We got home and started our "Deal or No Deal" marathon. We saw three episodes before he started to doze off.

We slept in Saturday and had lunch at Ccco's. My burger was okay. We headed back home to pick up my broken laptop and drop it off for service @ Best Buy/ I finally got around to getting the "Dirty Dancing 2: Havana Nights" Soundtack and 4 port usb hub for my new notebook. Went back home to see that movie and the other 2 episodes I saved of "Deal or no Deal". My sister came by and we saw "Shall We Dance". Before that we shopped @ Ralphs for my mom's green bean casserole request. I made her some. So we watched the movie as I prepared the casserole. We picked up Lu from work after and headed out to my mom's to drop off her food. We stayed there for a quick bite and discussed this week's itenerary before leaving.

Tristan is so cute. That boy is getting smarter and more handsome as each day goes by. Wish Lalia can develop a better sense of sensitivity and concern for her family. I am certain she is quite a wonderful friend, but she seems so unrelenting to het family. Mom seems to give up on her attitude already. Sometimes she's so nasty and I feel bad for the people around her. I think she thinks its cute, or she could care less, but its not right specially since everyone around her cares a lot about her and she treats them like crap. We're okay, but its tiring to see everyone's sad faces. Even Ray is tired about that whole song and dance.

Thought I dropped and lost a $100.00 when we headed out to Ralphs. I was sad and disappointed but eventually made peace with it later that afternoon. I kept praying that whoever picked it up, use it for good and they probably could use it more than me. I cleaned out my purse and found it!!! Miracles do happen. Thank Heaven!

Yesterday, I started project cleanup! Long way....little progress, but there is movement. I put more songs into my ipod. I have a little over 1600 now.

School started for me and I am behind. I have to get cracking on that. I finished transferring all the "Boston Legal"'s I have to VHS. More space to record more shows.